Here's the Thing...

The thing is,  I'll turn fifty-two next month, so I've been having to deal with the sudden realization that my life is almost half over.  It's caused me to wonder things like:

  • Am I being realistic about the things I want to accomplish in my lifetime?
  • By virtue of my existence, is anything of permanence being built?
  • Do I still have a chance to make a lasting mark in the annals of human history?
  • Has anybody really been affected in any way by my feeble - albeit, profound - writings?

Dense and Denser

Failing to recognize his own disruptiveness to the other patrons in the restaurant, Roger took yet another long, loud sip of black pekoe as he read the fortune he had just extracted from his cookie. "Here's my fortune," he said to his seemingly disinterested lunch-mate, Blake, who was sitting blank-stared, obviously thinking of... something. "It says,

'Many receive advice; only the wise profit from it.'

"I'm sorry, but I just don't see how that's gonna help anybody."

He Wants to Hold Her

When a man sees a woman he finds attractive, there is this internal impulse. Some kind of fundamental drive. Who knows where it comes from? But it transcends sexuality, for it comes up whether he's admiring his own wife, his daughter, his neice, or a friend's wife or daughter. It is a thing that arises out of the beautiful "femaleness," or perhaps the perfect femininity of the woman or girl. As a man, he sees this and admires it. He is momentarily captivated by it.

The man thinks to himself, "I want to hold her."

What is Love?

What is love?

The poets have never stopped contemplating it.  Song writers write, singers sing, actors act… they write about love, they sing about love, they portray love as best they can.  But mankind still cannot understand its depths.

How I Met my Friend, Garry

The stinging chill of the night air cut through my alpaca wind breaker like a Frenchman on a mo-ped in rush hour traffic as I reached for another fag. The distant, muted cacophony of the surf beyond the jetty, the pungent fragrance of the tailings of yesterday's catch, and the oddly diffuse brilliance of a full moon peering down through a meandering marine layer all conspired to set the mood—a doleful, introspective kind of mood.

indecision

What is it about indecisiveness that I hate so much?

It's not that it uses up time (though the older I get, the less patience I have). No, I think it's because of the complications it adds to life.  There are two basic types of indecision that drive me crazy, and they both center around stuff that just doesn't matter that much. The two scenarios can be exemplified as follows:

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